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Wow its been a long ass time since I blog in here. well let see wah happened lately. hum....let start from June (lolz)
June: 21st skool ended. went to FFC with Geneva Vivian Janice and Alisha. Its was fun. buh damn i got burnt...still have the big ass mark! buh its all cool learned my lesson.
July: on the 1st i drove my mom to South Center Mall buh i got lost! hahaha see how dumb i can be? Anh told me to go striaght buh hehhe i didn't listen and turn left to the road tat goes to Wal-Mart. hahah i tried to be smart soo i decided to go from Wal-Mart to SC Mall...buh there where i got lost! damn i drove around on the freeway for more than 2 hours! my mom was hella scare! after tat i went got back to Wal-Mart and ask how to get to I-5 hahha luckily i got back to MLK and went back to SC Mall like at 5 or 6. went shop for only 2 hours. PHEW! tat was a scary day! Now on the 2nd - i got on the plan and went back to vietnam. it was super Hot and humid. i got to go to places buh it wasn't much fun since there was like 14 pepo with yooh. damn traveling with family is tiring! buh yea. been there for a month. the weather was weird sunny only fo a few days then it rain hella. its rain til the day i left! so freaking pissed.
buh yea tat was mostly it hahha too lazy to type more soo yea see yea!
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Saturday-May 7, 2005
heyllo y'all! damn its been a while since i add something in here! hehe...well let see wah should i start wit...oh im 18!!! finally YAY!! hahah. last week the party was fun (hope those whoo anttended had a good time too.)after eating and joking we went to Alki...to have a bonfire buh all the bonfire places got taken soo we used the BBQ stove...then we spent a half hour on making the fire buh it wouldn't start. at 11:30 got kicked out of the park...stoopid cops. sooo yea tat was about it. on monday which was May 2 my b-day...it was okea i guess... didn't turn out how i tot it would buh oh well... buh my lovely daughter Geneva went out and eat with me. TANKIE GENEVA! buh yea....tat was mostly it. TANKIE FO ALL THE GIFTS GURLS! hehe. after my b-day i worked..3 days straight. it was alrite i guess. the pepo was nice it juz the bitch pissed me off can't wait until she go back to her country. buh yea..oh todai i went and got my ID renew...i was about to renew my driving primit too...buh then stoopid me fogot to bring my glasses. soo i have to return on tuesday...see how fogetful i can be? oh i opened a bank account too! hahaha iuno yy i opened one for buh i did. dun have much in there. hahah trying to save buh iuno if i can or not. yep yep tat was my week...first i was pissed cuz some bitch stole my wallet then happy cuz of the party...okea on monday...life doesn't always go yoor way... yep yep tat all fo now...peace out y'all!
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| tuesday-4/19
hm...been two weeks since i add something here. let see the last two weeks wah happened...um...can't really remember. but i got job now...i think. from last friday to yesterday, i went to work. it suppose to be trainning...buh i did work anyways. it's pretty kool. most of the elders tat lives there are very nice. the first day was nerve reckin, buh luckily i got the nicest trainner ever. he was soo kool. he told not to worry if i dun get it. and the elders kept on stoping us to ask am i new and wah my name is. haha funnie tat after the first day i gave them two names to call me...since some of them can't say the word "nha" or at least can't remember it. so i let them call me May...way easier. i worked 4 days straight..i was soo tired. but now i have the whole week off...now i think imma miss the elders..some of them are soo cute! haha yea the old pepo are fine the prob is the pepo i work wit. bitches pissed the fucked out of me. tat bitch got on my last nerve! she work 1 month b4 me and think she everything bossing me around...shitz hate tat bitch! sighz oh well...i need $$ buh now after meeting the elders i think i like workin there b-cuz of them. sighzzzz
Oh..while on the skool bus going home today, i tot of a vow to myself...im dead serious. after wah was going on last year i tot about it buh never got to it. i fall fo pepo too easily. i fell in a big hole last year, it too me a year to get out of it. this year juz after getting out of tat hole i fell into a hole it not big buh still hurts wen yooh fell. tat hole took me a week or so to get out. and now the third hole i fell in...dun noe if im out or still struggling to get out. tat why im made a vow to myself. my vow is to protect myself won't let any more pain come to be no matter wah kind of pain...mostly emotional pain. won't let myself fall into any more holes. sighz...i wan to be isolated from some pepo rite now. there 4 or 5 pepo i wan to get away from. sighz i really dun wan to see them...(AND THEY'RE NOT YOOH PAULA OR HELEN!) oh one thing i wanna let pepo noe...starting from now on if i joke with yooh or hit yooh tat means i likes yooh (not the bf/gf kind..simply FRIEND) buh if not i juz talk to yooh or lilto talkes tat mean i HATE or starting to dislike yooh. im too tired going around being frwnds wit some of yooh. buh i still love my "family" which is my mommie, my sonniez, and my gf (HELEN)! those are the most important pepo rite now! and there one more person my daughter Queenie (Quynh Anh) damn i miss her soo much! wish i could go back in time...to enjoy my 8th grade year and not connect with some pepo in high skool. not noeing some of them would be best.(exclude: PAULA&HELEN) sighz...i think i believe and make frwnds wit some pepo too fast. sighz soo tired. i wanna be strong and tell pepo how i feel buh i noe tat will make them think im stoopid. why do i keep on noeing pepo tat get in my way of thing and always get wah im interest in? Sighz well i think tat would be all...i tot i got everything plan out after 5th per. &on the bus, wah imma put on here buh now iuno. Feel really angry!!
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hey pepo hm...needa do my hw and crappy stuff buh too lazy. Buh yea still feelin the same as the last blog. SO yea. Buh todai was funnie....(as always i made a fool out of my self.) we went to Sunny Teriyaki (Me Thu Helen & Courtny??Dun noe how to spell her name..sowwie) hehe i called to order b4 we got there buh the thing is....i dun noe wah the food i wanted call...soo i was like "chicken tempura?" the lady was like "wah? we don't have tat" hahah she and i kept going on wit it fo a while, finally i was like "SIGH! fine give me the chicken teriyaki" hahah the chicken i wanted in the first place was chicken katsu! hahaha wen i got there i was like DAMN IT! Damn im soo unsmart and have the shortest memory ever! hehe while we were waiting i was trying to attack Helen...man she can slap! after waiting fo the food soo damn long! we got back to 5th like 15 mins late, got caught by the lady Ms.Thompson how ever yooh spell it. Buh yea she let us go...PHEW! hehe soo yea tat was fun? Helen let do it again! muahahah. buh still want tat chicken katsu! eeerr oh Thu pointed out there was tempura! wah a bitch! the stoopid lady said they dun't have it. eer......... Its kool...on the weekend : saturday i went to South Center mall wit my frwnd (kathy)..for like wah 2 hours? i wanted to take her out to eat buh she have to go to church so yea. Sunday; Kathy called me asking if i want go to eat breakfast...i was still sleeping. i didn't tat i was suppose to change the time. Buh yea she picked me up and we went for Dim Sim...i paid...hella cheap. hehehe. I love tat place now...since Top Gun closed down tat my fav. dim sim place. hehe me a pig love eating out! hehe well tat all fo now laterzzz | | |
| Saturday Nite 3/25
Another boring day/nite so i'm back! Stoopid rain ruin my mood can't go no where wen it pouring outside! Wen i dun have moeny to go anywhere its all sunny and nice buh then wen i DO have money it rain! Errr shitz!
I think i'm in a bad mood. Dun noe wah to do or how to feel. Feel sooo damn lost!! Like everything around me aren't for me...like skool...job....frwnd. I've been listen to Phi Nhung (vietnamese singer) all nite long the same songs over and over. I dun noe if tat good or not. Since last year i went through stuff and stuck to love music (more like depressing music) and now i'm back wit country. Sighzzz tot i would feel better wen i listen to her music buh guess not. All i feel is the songs..which is sad...very sad. Buh i can't get enuff of it! Listen to her voice is soo claiming. Claiming buh i still feel....angry...sad? AAhh! While thinking about stuffs...i tot of a person. I tot she was my fwend the one tat will be there fo me no matter what...the one tat i shared my deepest secret. But now i dun even noe her...we don't talk anymore and she act like she dun noe me. We used to be close and always talk...talk until we drive pepo crazy. She left me hanging juz b-cuz i'm buddist and she christain...juz b-cuz i won't beleive in wah she believe in. Wah is wrong wit pepo???? We had the same interests and taste in things...but now she change...into someone no one can tell. I think she change to white wash...not the same funnie gurl i noe anymore. Why do i fall for pepo soo easily? Feel soo out of place. I dun noe hoo true or fake...sometimes i feel soo annoy. I keep making myself happy infront of pepo...i tot tat would be best. I'm scare one day imma blast. Or is this juz one of my mood swing???? AAhhh confussion!
I noe i'm missing someone...buh WHO??? WHO am i missing??? Wah am i missing??? I tot i had everything in place skool was going not soo well buh i manage to pull it together, frwnds i tot i had it and could depand on it, and fo job i found one...buh it seem like i don't have one. Seeing all these pepo wit their happie lives and enjoying it....make me look at myself and wah do i have? :sighz: i miss my 8th grade year...it was the funnest skool year ever.
I tot chocolate and coffee would make me feel better buh even caffine is useless now. Nothing can help me....wah should i do??? Thinkin these last few years...i feel like i had wasted it. I want to go back in time and redo everything and make something out of myself. Buh tat can't never happen.
Should i turn into a person wit a cold heart? and dun care about anything? Juz live w/out knowing the meaning of it? i've been waiting fo the good things to come and a person to come and help me up...buh tat good thing and person is never going to come!! I have to live life day by day acting , soo people won't bug me about it. :sighz: I dun even noe yy i'm putting this on here...AAhh!! Thiz is fawk up! I wanna reborn!!! I wan another life! Screw thiz life of mine! Meaningless!!! FAWK!
I feel trap between people! Hoo's good? Hoo's bad?? How the fuck do i noe wen people go around wit a mask on??? Even i have a mask on myself! Juz leave me alone and let me be. Let me act how i want to...let me put on a fake smile... better than make me feel pressure to show the truth and hurts everyone...juz let me be!!
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